Yes!
Today I am THIRTY years old! And I do feel "different." I've never been afraid to make changes, but lately it's been too easy to live in the past and look back at how life "use to be" before moving to New York.
Remember the "Sunscreen Song"? 'Live in New York but leave before it makes you hard.'
Well, for a while I felt like I was overextending my stay - wearing out my welcome. These past few years have been a whirlwind testing my sanity, my strength, my patience and my mental ability to push forward despite numerous road blocks. It did change me and I'm still coping with who I am. I am learning to accept. I am learning how to be who I want to be.
But regardless I'm still here and Im still fucking kickin'!.
Turning 30 makes me feel like I can appreciate the mistakes I made in my 20s and that I have complete control over my own emotions and feelings.
It's amazing how today nothing feels different but looking back, you notice how everything has changed.
My 20s were a process of collecting traits and characteristics becoming of a strong young woman. Without this process, I couldnt be who I am today. And I couldn't be who I am still becoming.
This is a fantastic article, posted in Glamour that I have always loved. I find it highly applicable:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/04/24/turning-30-30-things-every-woman-should-have-and-should-know_n_1447368.html
By 30, you should have ...
1. One old boyfriend you can imagine going back to and one who reminds you of how far you’ve come.
2. A decent piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in your family.
3. Something perfect to wear if the employer or man of your dreams wants to see you in an hour.
4. A purse, a suitcase, and an umbrella you’re not ashamed to be seen carrying.
5. A youth you’re content to move beyond.
6. A past juicy enough that you’re looking forward to retelling it in your old age.
7. The realization that you are actually going to have an old age -- and some money set aside to help fund it.
8. An email address, a voice mailbox, and a bank account -- all of which nobody has access to but you.
9. A résumé that is not even the slightest bit padded.
10. One friend who always makes you laugh and one who lets you cry.
11. A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra.
12. Something ridiculously expensive that you bought for yourself, just because you deserve it.
13. The belief that you deserve it.
14. A skin-care regimen, an exercise routine, and a plan for dealing with those few other facets of life that don’t get better after 30.
15. A solid start on a satisfying career, a satisfying relationship, and all those other facets of life that do get better.
By 30, you should know ...
1. How to fall in love without losing yourself.
2. How you feel about having kids.
3. How to quit a job, break up with a man, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship.
4. When to try harder and when to walk away.
5. How to kiss in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and wouldn’t like to happen next.
6. The names of the secretary of state, your great-grandmothers, and the best tailor in town.
7. How to live alone, even if you don’t like to.
8. Where to go -- be it your best friend’s kitchen table or a yoga mat -- when your soul needs soothing.
9. That you can’t change the length of your legs, the width of your hips, or the nature of your parents.
10. That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it’s over.
11. What you would and wouldn’t do for money or love.
12. That nobody gets away with smoking, drinking, doing drugs, or not flossing for very long.
13. Who you can trust, who you can’t, and why you shouldn’t take it personally.
14. Not to apologize for something that isn’t your fault.
15. Why they say life begins at 30
Today I am THIRTY years old! And I do feel "different." I've never been afraid to make changes, but lately it's been too easy to live in the past and look back at how life "use to be" before moving to New York.
Remember the "Sunscreen Song"? 'Live in New York but leave before it makes you hard.'
Well, for a while I felt like I was overextending my stay - wearing out my welcome. These past few years have been a whirlwind testing my sanity, my strength, my patience and my mental ability to push forward despite numerous road blocks. It did change me and I'm still coping with who I am. I am learning to accept. I am learning how to be who I want to be.
But regardless I'm still here and Im still fucking kickin'!.
Turning 30 makes me feel like I can appreciate the mistakes I made in my 20s and that I have complete control over my own emotions and feelings.
It's amazing how today nothing feels different but looking back, you notice how everything has changed.
My 20s were a process of collecting traits and characteristics becoming of a strong young woman. Without this process, I couldnt be who I am today. And I couldn't be who I am still becoming.
This is a fantastic article, posted in Glamour that I have always loved. I find it highly applicable:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/04/24/turning-30-30-things-every-woman-should-have-and-should-know_n_1447368.html
By 30, you should have ...
1. One old boyfriend you can imagine going back to and one who reminds you of how far you’ve come.
2. A decent piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in your family.
3. Something perfect to wear if the employer or man of your dreams wants to see you in an hour.
4. A purse, a suitcase, and an umbrella you’re not ashamed to be seen carrying.
5. A youth you’re content to move beyond.
6. A past juicy enough that you’re looking forward to retelling it in your old age.
7. The realization that you are actually going to have an old age -- and some money set aside to help fund it.
8. An email address, a voice mailbox, and a bank account -- all of which nobody has access to but you.
9. A résumé that is not even the slightest bit padded.
10. One friend who always makes you laugh and one who lets you cry.
11. A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra.
12. Something ridiculously expensive that you bought for yourself, just because you deserve it.
13. The belief that you deserve it.
14. A skin-care regimen, an exercise routine, and a plan for dealing with those few other facets of life that don’t get better after 30.
15. A solid start on a satisfying career, a satisfying relationship, and all those other facets of life that do get better.
By 30, you should know ...
1. How to fall in love without losing yourself.
2. How you feel about having kids.
3. How to quit a job, break up with a man, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship.
4. When to try harder and when to walk away.
5. How to kiss in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and wouldn’t like to happen next.
6. The names of the secretary of state, your great-grandmothers, and the best tailor in town.
7. How to live alone, even if you don’t like to.
8. Where to go -- be it your best friend’s kitchen table or a yoga mat -- when your soul needs soothing.
9. That you can’t change the length of your legs, the width of your hips, or the nature of your parents.
10. That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it’s over.
11. What you would and wouldn’t do for money or love.
12. That nobody gets away with smoking, drinking, doing drugs, or not flossing for very long.
13. Who you can trust, who you can’t, and why you shouldn’t take it personally.
14. Not to apologize for something that isn’t your fault.
15. Why they say life begins at 30