yesterday was full of high-highs and low-lows. today has been more even toned....at least so far.
ive decided that with my ongoing medical monitoring and creeping inflammation in my system that I will postpone the NPC stage I had my gaze set upon in Oct and Nov.
a good girlfriend of mine used to say "the stage will always be there when you're ready." and it's so true.
my body is not ready. physically....systemically...my number one focus above my fitness is getting to the bottom of what is causing my inflammation so that i can crush the source. it can be mentally toughening enough to train for a show and work with nutrition and training to achieve a stage ready physique.....it's another quest altogether to endure disease treatment. both avenues mixed had been leading me to an emotional and mental dead end.
it's called prioritizing. as much as I am all or nothing regarding my fitness, I have to shift that burning desire to being cured with complete 100% healing, clear eyesight and happy joints.
since it's in my blood and is now engrained as who i am, i will absolutely continue to eat well and train as hard as I am able to push myself. im supplementing with calcium and taking all other supplements diligently to prevent the prednisone from taxing my system. and i really dont gain weight on prednisone when i eat well and drink my H2O - im not worried about that. it's actually extremely motivating for me to stay away from garbagey food when Im on the prednisone....because I know that what the average person experiences in weight fluctuation from eating bad food, I experience times three when on the prednisone.
anyway, im kinda looking forward to the Pred again. pain free joints...bursts of energy.....
eh eh i kid i kid.
kinda.
ps, this is totally random but i LOOOOVE H&M lately!! the top was 20 bux and the skirt was 18. cuteStuff XoxoXOXOxxoxXOXx
ive decided that with my ongoing medical monitoring and creeping inflammation in my system that I will postpone the NPC stage I had my gaze set upon in Oct and Nov.
a good girlfriend of mine used to say "the stage will always be there when you're ready." and it's so true.
my body is not ready. physically....systemically...my number one focus above my fitness is getting to the bottom of what is causing my inflammation so that i can crush the source. it can be mentally toughening enough to train for a show and work with nutrition and training to achieve a stage ready physique.....it's another quest altogether to endure disease treatment. both avenues mixed had been leading me to an emotional and mental dead end.
it's called prioritizing. as much as I am all or nothing regarding my fitness, I have to shift that burning desire to being cured with complete 100% healing, clear eyesight and happy joints.
since it's in my blood and is now engrained as who i am, i will absolutely continue to eat well and train as hard as I am able to push myself. im supplementing with calcium and taking all other supplements diligently to prevent the prednisone from taxing my system. and i really dont gain weight on prednisone when i eat well and drink my H2O - im not worried about that. it's actually extremely motivating for me to stay away from garbagey food when Im on the prednisone....because I know that what the average person experiences in weight fluctuation from eating bad food, I experience times three when on the prednisone.
anyway, im kinda looking forward to the Pred again. pain free joints...bursts of energy.....
eh eh i kid i kid.
kinda.
ps, this is totally random but i LOOOOVE H&M lately!! the top was 20 bux and the skirt was 18. cuteStuff XoxoXOXOxxoxXOXx