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The alarm went off at 5.01am but my blankets and pillows were swallowing me and I gave up fighting my way out and instead surrendered to the rapture of white on white down, satin and fabric in an obnoxious thread count.

Virtually incapacitated, I started a conversation with myself:

"How badly do you want this, Shani?  How badly??"

"Really badly....?" I muttered to myself with uncertain tone and an upward inflection....

I repeated this question and unenthusiastic answer for about twenty minutes, pausing occasionally to smash the snooze button on my alarm.  If I am going to get out of this fortress, perhaps I need to ask a different question.  I am not believing myself enough to get up right now.

Aha!

"I dont believe you Shani.  A week from now, will you have wished you had gotten out of bed this morning to go on your run?  A month from now?  A year from now?"

Before I could answer, the covers suddenly parted and my mattress ejected me.  Without thought, I ran to the kitchen, took my OxyElite Pro and BCAAs with a giant glass of H2O...dressed and sleep-walked outside.

And before I could think about being tired, I was finished with my morning run.

I don't ever want to look back on my life or goals and say "I wish I would have done that when I had the chance.

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