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Hmm so what's new lately....

Well, I dropped off my blog for a bit because I was having issues with my eyes. It was a bit too tedious to update when it was too hard to view the screen.

I rid my life of a bad relationship. I tried to make it work. It didn’t – over and over and over again it just didn’t. He and I couldn’t get along as one unit any longer, so I had to go my own way again. And I decided when I did move on, that I was going to dedicate myself to fitness. No matter how long, seemingly impossible, painstaking the process would be, I would dedicate myself to achieving the perfect physique.

So for the last few weeks, I have been honoring that promise to myself and seeing remarkable changes. I tightened up my eating habits and have decided that the competitive stage, which I originally swore off, gives me a goal – something big to aim for – and gives me an outlet for all of the work I put into my body of art. The decision made me evaluate what I was doing before. There was a while I wasn’t even taking protein after a hard workout! What was I thinking?? I knew better than that…..

I wasn’t eating much junk, but I simply made a conscious effort to time my meals properly. And that has made a huge difference.

I started creatine monohydrate a few weeks ago, too. Last time I took CM I noticed big changes in muscle development. With my training I'm focusing diligently on strength and symmetry and have slashed my workout time - keeping lifting time to less than an hour and making my workouts harder and more efficient. I even made the decision to “work my boobs off” lol. Yep. They’ll have to go eventually – it’s just a hardened fact with this sport – you will lose breast tissue. I no longer am afraid of a hardcore chest workout….and am finding that an athletically toned chest is kinda awesome.

That’s the update for now. I'm nervous….and neurotic…..and obsessive…..and CONSUMED! But when you want something SO badly, you SHOULD BE!

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