Healthy with Shani

So, everything happens for a reason? Everything....meaning...everything? And for what reason?  Who decides the reason?  Could the reason change depending on the day....your mood?  Would two people have different reasons? How about....everything happens .  Because, well, it does.  And it did. The saying is flawed...but it's been plucked from the cosmos of information that surrounds us and used endlessly by those seeking comfort in the meaning they have assigned to a situation. Everything is simply everything and reasons keep us embedded in the past - reasons help us avoid the present.  Reasons keep us from practicing gratitude.  Gratitude keeps us present.  In the present lies the power to comfort and soothe our pains...our woes...and even our fluttery desirous hearts that fly away from us when we are full of joy and wonder.  It doesn't always have to have a negative connotation.  It just so often, does.  So instead of clai...

Ending without a beginning. Beginning without an ending. Somehow always ending back up at where you started but not really knowing how you got there. That was kind of how things always were between us. It was like being crushed by overwhelming depression every day.   Some days thinking that it was love. Our story was never truly remarkable. Okay, why would I write about something completely unremarkable? You got me. We were pretty marvelous. We were magic. Do you ever feel lucky when you have the realization that things are not what they seem, early on? Almost as if you were being given a little gift by your creator. It saves your life. Literally saves your life. It saves your time and brain capacity and most of all it saves your heart. It saves your heart from the twisting agony of feeling punched out and saves your pillows from tears. When you find out that he wasnt who you thought he was you feel grateful and angry. I felt mostly angry with myself for not ...